When... :: prev :: next :: When you say you're pleased, everything else fades away, And I can see that truly nothing else matters. When you call me your own, it makes me think I can make it, that despite all the beatings and the deep wounds inflicted something beautiful will emerge. When you say I'm okay, I sob uncontrollably because for so long I was told and believed that I'm not. When you say it's not my fault, it lifts the weight of the world up off my shoulders, and helps me begin the journey I must to start over. When you say you love me, I say - turn your eyes from me because your love is too intense for me to bear all at once. When you say I must die, I know there is nothing more I would rather do, and I want to do all I can to speed your work. When you say nothing's changed, that you're still sending me, I am again reduced to tears and confess to you that I am yours. When I close my eyes, I hear only your voice, and the terror and confusion of all the others is simply no longer there. When I sing you a song. I get lost in your eyes, and the beating of your heart is all I hear. When I learn to let go regardless of how I feel, I find that instead of falling I'm flying because it was done in faith, not pride. When I'm alone with you, I want time to stand still, and you answer me again - one day it will. When I say I love you, I feel the lack of depth brought by my silly language, and desire more than anything to be able to express it for real. When I find myself tumbling in familiar surroundings, you stop me from spinning, and say it was all for me. When I feel I'd be better dead, you remind me of all these things, and in your patient love tell me to not give up because you never will. © 2001 (23 may) john r. chase
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